Ratatat - Loud Pipes
People are telling me to enjoy high school cause it’s the best years of my life, and I’m just like don’t tell me what to do.
My friends are sitting here unfollowing everyone from high school because they “don’t care about them anymore” and I’m sitting here uncomfortable because they find it weird that I liked high school and people there. They’re also just unfollowing people that go to school with us and that they used to be friends with and saying they don’t care about them. I don’t know. I feel weird caring about so many people even if I don’t see them now??????
I loved Hozier’s self titled album so much senior year of high school. There was so much hope in me back then to pursue whatever career I wanted, no matter how “unrealistic” people deemed it to be. I’m glad I still have that mindset except it feels less and less unrealistic everyday. I’m having feelings of missing high school and not having any sight of my future in front of me which was so much less intimidating, but I’m also having feelings of being lucky to maintain relationships with people in my hometown as well as being able to experience a life in another state at a college with my friends there and getting to do life with a person that is so uplifting in everything that I try. I need to continue drawing because I haven’t been feeling confident in myself. I want to do a face mask but I only have one left and I’m doing it before I see Mikail so it looks like I have never been stressed or tired a day in my life. Still unsure of fun activities to do alone at night.
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but but i’m not cute

I had a dream about my high school theatre troupe, something that means the world to me, and I realized how far away I am from it and I’m only getting farther and as I’m finishing my freshman year of college I realize that that’s going to happen with a lot of things and the more I love them, the more it’s going to hurt to end up so far. Far as in time is moving on and my theatre troupe, for example, is a thing of the past, and far as in one day nobody in the theatre troupe at that high school will even know that I was a part of that at one point in time. I don’t know where I stand when it comes to loving something so much and being hurt when the distance appears or not caring at all so no pain is involved, but I’m leaning more towards feeling everything so hard and to the best of your ability.